Chapter Forty Four – Clay
Clay sat nervously beside Janelle on the
couch. This was his first day back with
his family. His wife had insisted that
they meet at the Campbells’ home, instead of their own home. She still didn’t trust him enough to be alone
with him. She had also made it clear
things were NOT going to return to the way they were before he attacked her.
Janelle had been living with the
Campbells since her release from the hospital.
When he had been released to return to his own home, he had driven
directly to the Campbells. He had
received quite a dressing down by Mrs. Campbell, before being allowed to see
his wife. His mind went back to his
introduction to Mrs. Campbell.
*** ***
When Mrs. Campbell opened the door, she
said, “I’m Mrs. Campbell. Please come
in, Mr. Henderson.” She didn’t extend
her hand to him, but gave him a hard-eyed stare. It was very apparent that she didn’t trust
him. He had never been intimidated by
anyone in his life, but this woman knew she had the upper hand, and it was very
clear he was on shaky ground with her.
Her stern countenance and piercing gaze shook the confidence he felt
upon leaving the base.
“Thank you for allowing us to meet in
your home, Mrs. Campbell,” he said, hoping to ease the tension between them.
“You’re welcome. Please follow me,” she said, leading him into
the music room. “Please sit down.” Her tone of voice left no doubt that he was
to obey her.
He did as he was instructed. She, however, remained standing. “I have a few things to say to you, before
Janelle joins you.”
She walked over to the fireplace and
pointed to a large photograph of two men in white tuxedos, holding hands. “Do you recognize who these men are?”
He nodded his head, and replied, “I’ve
met one of them, Rick Lernier. He used
to work for me at the Pentagon.” He
looked at the happy couple smiling out at him.
She nodded her head. “It’s a photo of my sons’ wedding, and these
are their children.” She picked up a
framed photo and handed it to him.
He wondered why she was showing him
these pictures. It made him
uncomfortable, not knowing where this conversation was headed. “I’ve met David and Ashley. They’re my children’s friends. I didn’t know Rick had five children.”
Mrs. Campbell nailed him with a frigid
glare, and said, “The only reason I’ve agreed to let you step foot inside my
home is because of your children, especially given your behavior toward Rick. I have very little patience for ignorance,
and even less for prejudice and hatred.”
She continued to hold his eyes with her steely glare. “Have you managed to overcome some of your
hatred and prejudice toward gays, since you last saw my son?”
He looked away from her, but responded,
“Why does it matter? Rick won’t have
anything to do with me. I tried everything
I could to persuade him to return to work on my project. I even tried to get Lt. Col. Bachman to talk
to him. But, it was too late by
then. That’s when I realized what an
idiot I was for running Rick out of my shop.
I was too blinded by my religious beliefs to see that I had set myself
up for failure, despite the warnings my superiors gave me.”
“Well, it matters a lot to me, because
I’ve come to love your family very much, Mr. Henderson. Janelle is a wonderful woman and your
children have a special place in my heart.”
She paused, causing him to look up at her. She held his gaze, and said, “I want you to
be the father and husband you were meant to be; however, that means you can’t
continue to carry hate and prejudice toward others in your heart,” she said. Her eyes bored into his, searching for
indications that he understood her and comprehended what he needed to do. She seemed to know exactly what he was
thinking, because she said, “It’s time for you to change the direction of your
life.”
Shrugging off her comments, he said, “I
appreciate everything you’ve done for my family, Mrs. Campbell. What, exactly, is it that you want from me?”
“I want you to apologize to my sons for
your poor behavior. I want you to do
your best to overcome any issues you have with two men loving each other. I intend to continue my association with your
family; therefore, I have to insist that we come to an understanding regarding
my family. I love my boys very much, and
I won’t tolerate anyone bringing hatred or prejudice into their lives. They have already suffered enough in their
young lives.” Mrs. Campbell said. “Can
you accept my sons for who they are: a
happily married gay couple?”
He nodded his head, and replied, “I can
do that, now. I was convinced that I had
to portray myself as homophobic to be accepted by my fellow Marines. I didn’t want to hear anything but hatred for
gays, even though my superior officer warned me not to offend Rick. I’ve had plenty of time to think about a lot
of things. My therapist has helped me
through the process of sorting out my feelings and the reasons for the anger I
feel. At first, I blamed Rick for
leaving me high and dry on the job. I
felt he was the cause of my failure at work.
Then, I just snapped and I lost complete control the night I attacked
Janelle. I hurt the person I love the
most in the entire world.”
Here he stopped, looking away from her
while trying to gain control over his emotions as tears ran down his cheeks. After talking with Janelle earlier in the day,
he was afraid he had already lost his opportunity to be reunited with his
family. Mrs. Campbell noted his
emotional state, and waited, patiently, for him to continue.
“During the therapy sessions at
Quantico, I realized that the anger I felt was really anger at my own
failures. I was unwilling to admit that
I was the one who had failed, so I misdirected it toward others. It took me a while to learn to live with
myself, and to learn to change those things about myself I needed to change.”
He looked up at Mrs. Campbell. “I’m a broken man, Mrs. Campbell. I’ve begun the process of fixing what’s wrong
with me; but, I’m far from being where I need to be. I know that I don’t deserve to be with my
family, after what I did to Janelle. My
children probably think I’m some kind of monster. Janelle said they didn’t want to talk to
me.” He put his head in his hands,
feeling a heavy cloud of despair and hopelessness come over him.
Mrs. Campbell said, “I think there may
be hope for you yet; however, it will all depend on you and how you interact
with your family and friends. You have a
lot of explaining to do to your wife; and, most of all, you have to convince
your children that what they witnessed will never, ever, happen again. You have a lot of work ahead of you to regain
their confidence and trust.” She paused,
before continuing, “I’ll let Janelle know you’re here.”
She left the room, and returned a few
moments later with Janelle. He started
to get up from the couch, but she waved him away, and said, “I don’t want you
to touch me, Clay. You lost that right
when you assaulted me.” She crossed the
room, and sat next to him on the couch.
Mrs. Campbell quietly left the room.
*** ***
Clay was brought back to the present by
Janelle’s voice. He turned to look at
her. “Clay, I need to know how you feel
toward gays.”
He met her eyes, and asked, “Why?”
“Because your son is gay,” Janelle said,
watching Clay’s face very closely. She
sat on the edge of couch, ready to take flight at the slightest indication that
he intended to do her harm.
Clay looked at her in shock. He couldn’t imagine Mark being gay. It had to be a very bad joke. This had to be the Campbells’ influence on
his son. A sudden flare of white hot
anger seized his mind. He would make
sure they couldn’t continue to teach his son to be gay! He could tolerate other people being gay,
just not his own son!
Janelle watched the expressions of shock
and surprise cross his face, followed by anger.
She stood up, distancing herself from his anger. Before he could speak, Janelle continued, her
voice hard as steel, “If you still harbor ill will toward gays, then our
marriage is over. I will not subject my
son to your hatred and prejudice. Mark’s
happiness is more important to me than being married to a bigot. If you express any kind of negative feelings
toward gays, I will make sure you never see your children again.”
He clenched his fists, while he tried to
control his anger, but couldn’t speak.
Janelle noted his clenched fists and
said, “I think it’s time for you to leave, Clay. I can see from your expression and your body
language that you’ve got issues with the news I’ve shared with you.” She turned away from him, and started toward
the doorway
“Wait, Janelle, can we talk?” he
begged. “Don’t you see that it’s the
Campbells’ fault Mark is gay. We just
need to get him away from here, Janelle, and he’ll return to normal.”
She stopped at the doorway, and turned
to face him. “What is there to talk
about? You hate gays, so that is all there
is to say.”
“I don’t hate gays, Janelle. I just don’t believe that Mark is gay. He has been brainwashed by the Campbells,” he
said, anger dripping like acid from his voice.
“Mark’s being gay didn’t just
happen. He’s been that way all of his
life. You’ve chosen to close your eyes
to it, because of your hatred,” Janelle said.
“Good bye, Clay. My lawyers will
contact yours. I have the answer to my
question. I’ve made my decision about
our marriage.”
She left the room, leaving him
completely stunned and unable to articulate his thoughts. The anger he felt quickly evaporated, as he
realized he had made a major mistake letting his anger show. He was still trying to fathom why he didn’t
know that Mark was gay, when Mrs. Campbell returned.
She looked him in the eyes, and said, “I
tried to prepare you to answer Janelle’s question in a positive way, but you
failed. It wasn’t my place to inform you
of your son’s sexual orientation, or I would’ve told you straight out that he
was gay. Mark gave Janelle his permission
to tell you he’s gay, because he is afraid of being beaten by you, just like
you beat his mother. Your children fear
you, Mr. Henderson, apparently with good reason.”
He shook his head in disbelief. How could things have gotten so out of control? He felt like things were going to work out
for him when he left Quantico; but, now, everything had turned out wrong. He wanted to be angry at Mrs. Campbell, but
he knew she wasn’t the cause of his problems.
“Mrs. Campbell, what can I do to regain what
I’ve lost?”
“I think Janelle already told you what
she expected,” Mrs. Campbell said.
He thought for a moment, before he
replied. “Yes, she did. I think I need some time to think things
over, especially the news about Mark.”
He stood up, and Mrs. Campbell saw him out.
He climbed into his car and sat, staring
at the house. He finally turned the key
in the ignition, and backed out of the Campbell’s driveway. He drove home and pulled into his
driveway. He got out of his car and
walked up to the front door. It had been
almost three months, since the last time he had entered his home.
He unlocked the door and walked
inside. He walked into the kitchen,
throwing his keys on the table. He
stopped in surprise, as his gaze took in the handmade sign taped to the
refrigerator. It read, “Welcome Home, Dad! Love Mark and Michaela.”
He pulled over a chair from the kitchen
table and sat down, staring at the message from his children. He missed them so much! He thought about his beautiful daughter and longed
to give her a hug. Then, he thought of
Mark. The revelation that he was gay had
shocked him, and he had thought, at first, that the Campbells had turned him
gay, or Rick and his family. However,
the more he thought about it, he began to realize that Mark had always had an
affinity for boys. He had tried to
ignore what he saw, especially in light of his own religious beliefs.
His thoughts turned to Janelle. He loved her very much, and her rejection of
him really stung. He hadn’t expected
her to choose their children over him, but she had. She had made it very clear where she
stood. He understood why she feared he
would attack their son, as he had attacked her.
He got that part. However,
somewhere, in the back of his mind, he hoped he could still salvage his
marriage. He just had to figure out how
to accept his son as being gay! He put
his head in his hands and stared at the floor, wondering who he could call for
advice.
*** ***
Janelle sat across from her children and
explained, “Your Dad won’t be rejoining us.
He made it clear he could not accept the fact that Mark is gay, so we’ll
be moving back to Texas to live with Grandma and Grandpa Paul.”
Mark asked, “But aren’t people in Texas
even more anti-gay than the people here?”
“That’s true, but I don’t have any other
way to support our family, Mark,” she responded. “We can live with my parents, while I look
for a job. We don’t have any money, so
we can’t stay in Virginia. We need money
to pay the bills and to buy food.”
“Maybe the Campbells will let us stay
here, until you find a job,” Michaela suggested.
“I don’t want to abuse their
hospitality, Michaela. They have been
very wonderful to us, but we need to move on, now that we know your father
won’t be returning,” she said, looking her daughter in the eye.
Michaela said, “Mom, can’t we at least
try to make things work here?”
Mark said, “David said his Dads could
help you find a job and we could do more things that don’t cost money. If Dad weren’t so homophobic, I’m sure they
could help Dad, too.”
She smiled at her son. “Yes, your boyfriend has been lobbying his
Dads pretty heavily to help us find a way to stay here. They have already spoken to me about finding
me a job. They weren’t too sure about
helping your Dad, given his history.”
He blushed, but replied, “It’s not just
David, Mom, I want to stay here, too. I
love David and I don’t’ want to leave him.”
Janelle already knew that Mark and David
were very close. It was obvious to her,
from how they touched each other, the little glances they exchanged, and how
they finished each other’s sentences, that they were lovers. She remembered how she felt about her first
lover and how heartbroken she was when her parents moved the family to another state.
She met his gaze, and said, “I understand
how you feel, Markley; but we need to do what is best for the entire family,
not just one person.”
When she used his real name, Mark knew
she was serious. He protested, “But,
Michaela wants to stay, as well.”
“Mark, I want to stay, but I can’t see
how things will work for us,” Janelle said.
Mrs. Campbell came into the room, and
she said, “Janelle, you are welcome to stay as long as you need to, so you can
get on your feet. You have stayed here with
your family while you’ve recovered from your injuries; and you can stay a while
longer, while you find work.”
Janelle started to protest, “But…”
Mrs. Campbell cut her off, “There are no
‘buts,’ Janelle. You know that I’m a
very stubborn woman and I’m used to getting my way. So, now that that’s settled, I’ve invited the
boys over for dinner to discuss employment opportunities with you.”
Janelle said, “I can’t imagine they will
be able to find something that suits my talents.”
“You underestimate them, my dear. Rick and Glenn and their family are very
resourceful. I don’t doubt that they
will already have something lined up for you,” Mrs. Campbell said.
*** ***
After dinner with the Campbells, Rick
and I walked into the study, followed by Janelle and Mrs. Campbell. We took our seats in front of the large desk,
while Mrs. Campbell sat behind it. She
nodded her head, and said, “Okay, boys, let’s hear what you have in mind for
Janelle.”
I said, “We want to help you set up your
own business.”
Janelle stared at me in shock. When she finally recovered, she asked, “What
kind of business?”
“Well, your children have been very
helpful in outlining your talents. Mark
told us that you graduated with a degree in voice and piano performance. He also said you play the flute and the violin,”
I said.
“That’s true,” Janelle said.
“Michaela told us you were on your high
school swim team,” Rick said.
“Yes, I am a good swimmer,” she
acknowledged.
“Well, we think you should teach music
lessons, as well as swimming lessons,” I said.
“I can refer students to you, as well as putting your name out to the
various music programs in the area,” I said.
Mrs. Campbell said, “We have an indoor
swimming pool where you can teach lessons year round; and we have the music
room for the music lessons.”
“Also, I think you should audition for
the various orchestras in the area,” I said.
“I think you would find yourself in high demand.”
Janelle looked at me and asked, “Do you
really think so?”
“Yes, I do,” I replied, confidently.
Rick glanced at Mrs. Campbell, before he
added, “We also have a need for a housekeeper, since Glenn is working in Austin
a couple of weeks a month. I could
really use the help. It would only be
temporary, since Glenn’s project is scheduled to be completed by the end of the
year; but, it would allow you to move back into your own home, if you decide
not to stay here with the Campbells.”
Mrs. Campbell smiled, and said, “See,
Janelle. What did I tell you? They have already thought things through and
provided you with several things to think about.”
Janelle smiled, and said, “They sure
have. Thank you for your encouragement,
and the job offer. Let me think it over,
and I’ll let you know.” She paused, then
asked, “Would you consider helping Clay find a job? I know how you feel about him, but he is a
good man and I hate to see him suffer so much for his faults.”
I looked at Rick, who shrugged. “I think we can give it some thought. Has he changed his attitude toward gays?”
She shook her head. “Unfortunately, no he hasn’t. I’m filing for a divorce, since I can’t risk
my son’s happiness by staying with him.”
“I’m sorry, Janelle,” I said. “I had hoped that the Marine Corps could help
him.”
“Me, too; but, apparently not,” she
said, sadly.
“Well, maybe he will come to realize
that his hatred is only hurting himself,” I said.
Rick said, “We’ll see what we can do;
but, we can’t promise anything at this point.”
Janelle looked at us, gratefully. “Here is his cell number.”
I entered it into my phone. “Janelle, we are willing to help you get
started by setting up a meeting with our financial advisor. He can help you put together a business plan,
advise you about how best to proceed.”
Janelle said, “Thank you.”
I said, “He’s my Grandpa
Scarborough. Here’s his number. I’ve already talked to him about your
situation.”
Janelle took the note from my hand,
where I had written down Grandpa’s name and phone number. “I’ll call him tomorrow.”
“Good,” I said.
We stood up and made our way into the
music room, where the teens were entertaining each other, playing the piano; and
the twins were sitting on the General’s lap having an energetic discussion
about who was going to drive his wheelchair!
We spent the rest of the evening
enjoying the company of friends and family.
Janelle played for us, as did Mark.
Mark mainly plays by ear, but he has a beautiful touch on the piano!
*** ***
Garth Bachman looked into his husband’s
eyes, and said, “Phil, what do you think about starting a new company?”
Phil smiled, and said, “I wondered how
long it would take for you to dream up some new scheme.” He cupped Garth’s cheek with his hand. “I’ve enjoyed our time together, but I’ve
also known that you were becoming restless.”
Garth laughed. “Restless?
I guess you could call it being restless. We’ve been touring Europe for nearly three
months now. I think I’ll go crazy if I
see another old castle or ancient city.”
Phil kissed him, and said, “Thank you
for making my dreams come true, Babe.
You’ve taken me all over Europe and shown me things I never hoped to see.”
Garth caressed his lover’s body. He loved running his hands over Phil’s smooth
skin. Phil had recently taken to shaving
off his body hair, leaving his skin soft and silky. Garth hadn’t been pleased at first, preferring
his lover’s hairy chest to this smooth one; but, now he loved the feel of
Phil’s baby soft skin against his.
Garth played with Phil’s curly black
hair, as he said, “We’ve had a wonderful time, but I think we need to do
something besides play tourist.”
Phil asked, curiously, “What is it that
you have in mind?”
“I’ve been in contact with some of my
former associates in the Marine Corps.
There’s going to be a contract awarded to do some work at the Quantico
Marine Base, and I’m thinking we should bid on it,” Garth said.
“Who else are you thinking of bringing
on board to work on this contract?” Phil asked.
“Well…I’d thought about Rick and
Glenn. I mentioned it to Rick
yesterday. I even thought about bringing
on Clay Henderson,” Garth responded, waiting to see Phil’s reaction.
Phil looked at his husband in
shock. “You’ve got to be kidding! You aren’t seriously thinking of working with
that homophobic maniac?”
“Yes, I am. I think that we can work with him, despite
his issues. He has the right skills for
the job, and is out of work at the moment,” Garth said.
“How do you know that?” Phil asked.
“Rick told me,” Garth said. “I also had him checked out by some of my
folks on the inside. I’ve got a complete
rundown on his mental condition. The
Corps thinks they have him sorted out, now; however, they don’t want him in a
position of power in the Corps. So,
they are giving him an honorable discharge.”
“So, how does that equate to giving him
a job in our new company?” Phil asked.
Garth smiled. Phil had said “our” company, indicating that
he had already accepted Garth’s proposal to form a new company. He knew his lover would agree to his
proposal.
“Apparently, Clay’s son, Mark, is dating
Rick’s son, David,” Garth said.
“Wow!” Phil exclaimed. “Does Clay know his son is gay?”
“He does; but, his wife is leaving him
because he can’t accept that fact. But,
get this: She wants Rick and Glenn to
help him get a job,” Garth said.
Phil smiled. “So how does that involve us?”
“David has convinced his Dads to help Clay
find a job. He thinks that if Mark’s
Dad gets a job, he’ll be able to pay child support and Mark’s Mom will stay in
Alexandria instead of moving to Texas to live with her parents,” Garth said.
“Oh, I get it, now. We’re helping David keep his love life from
falling apart.” Phil said.
Garth nodded his head. “Basically, that’s it.”
Phil asked, “But, wouldn’t it be better
for David to lose Mark now, rather than later?”
Garth thought for a moment, then asked,
“I’m not sure what you mean, Phil.”
Phil elaborated, “It’s almost guaranteed
that Mark will dump David at some point in the future, Garth. Do you know if Mark is out at school?”
“No, he’s not. I asked that question, as well,” Garth said.
“If he’s not willing to admit to the
world that he’s gay, the relationship won’t last. David is very open about his sexuality, and
unless Mark is ready to be just as open, it won’t work. Plus, Mark and David are still in middle
school. They’re in the 8th
grade, aren’t they?”
Garth said, “Yes, they are.”
Phil asked, “So, why is Rick trying to
help keep them together, when he knows that things can’t last between David and
Mark?”
Garth responded, “I think it’s actually
Glenn who wants to help Clay. Rick can’t
stand the man, but you know how soft hearted Glenn is.”
Phil nodded his head in agreement. “Yes, I do know how idealistic Glenn can be;
but, I also know he is a good judge of character, at least so far.”
Garth grinned, and said, “That’s true;
however, I think it’s the combination of Rick and Glenn, together, that
produces fantastic results. So, I think
we need to talk to both of them about this little proposition, to make sure
they are both on board with it, before we proceed.”
Phil said, “I like your thinking. Now, I think it’s time for you make love to
me.”
Garth laughed, and said, “I’ve always
liked your one-track mind.”
Phil grinned. “I believe that it runs in the same direction
as yours.”
Garth responded to Phil’s statement, in
a very physical way, leaving them both in a state of euphoria!
*** ***
That same night, I lay in Rick’s arms,
in a post-coital state of euphoria, enjoying the warmth of his bare skin
against mine. I was nearly asleep, when
Rick asked, “Are you sure we should be helping Clay?”
I mumbled, “What, Babe?”
He repeated his question, “Do you really
think we should help Clay?”
My sluggish mind tried to process his
question, but failed. I rolled onto my
back and rubbed the sleep from my eyes, yawning widely. Rick ran his hand lightly over my chest,
giving each nipple a tweak, before leaning over to gently nip them with his
teeth. I moaned with pleasure, as he
hand moved lower, causing my skin to tingle.
He kissed me, then asked, “Do I have
your full attention, now?”
I grinned up at him. “Yes, you have it!”
He laughed. “I thought I might, given how hard you are.”
He straddled me, burying my cock deep
inside him. He began to ride me hard,
so hard and fast that I came in record time, despite our recent coupling!
I lay limp as a rag doll under my
beloved! He knows exactly how to give me
extreme pleasure! I looked into his
eyes, and said, “I love you, Mr. Lernier!”
He leaned down to capture my lips,
leaving me breathless! “I love you, too,
Babe.” He rolled off of me and got to
his feet. “Let’s get a shower. Then, we can change the sheets, so we can
sleep.”
He reached down to take my hand, pulling
me to my feet. He led me to our en
suite, and turned on the shower, adjusting the temperature. He pulled me under the warm cascade and
began washing me. I returned the favor,
when he finished. We dried each other
off, then we turned our attention to making the bed.
I pulled off the sheets, while Rick
grabbed the clean ones. We worked
together to make up the bed. While we
worked, Rick asked, again, “Do you really think we should help Clay?”
This time, his question made its way
through to my brain, and I answered, “Yes, I think we should. I had a really good conversation with him the
other day, and I think he has made a lot of progress.”
Rick asked, pointedly, “Are you sure you
aren’t just trying to save David the heartbreak of seeing his boyfriend move
on?”
I climbed into bed and looked up at my
handsome husband. “That is a factor;
however, Clay admitted how wrong he had been to harass you and Phil at
work. He knows you don’t like him, and
he feels sorry for treating you poorly.”
“Are you trying to apologize for him?”
Rick asked, suspiciously.
I reached up and took Rick’s hand in
mine, pulling him into bed with me. “No,
Babe. Clay’s a big boy and can apologize
to you directly. He doesn’t need me to
do his dirty work. I’m just pointing out
that he has expressed his regret for his past behavior. I told him that he would have to work things
out with you, if that is what he wishes to do.”
Rick
pulled me into his arms. “I wasn’t
sure. There, for a moment, I thought you
were trying to convince me to give him a second chance.”
I grinned. “You’re right. I do think you should give him an opportunity
to apologize.”
Rick kissed me, and said, “You’re always
looking for the good in people. I wish I
could be as positive as you are about people’s intentions.”
“That’s why we make a good team. You have a healthy dose of skepticism to
counteract my tendency to be too trusting,” I said, tracing the outline of his
six pack abs with my fingertips.
He put his hand over mine, and said, “If
you keep that up, we’ll have round three.”
I grinned impishly at him. “That would be fine with me.”
“Well, if that’s the case, I’m going to
make you work for it,” Rick said, giving me a lecherous grin. “I’ve been doing all of the work tonight,
it’s your turn.” He rolled me on top of
him, spreading his legs for me. I lifted
them over my shoulders and entered him, causing him to gasp in pleasure. I had my husband right where I wanted him,
begging me to fuck the cum out of him! I
leaned down to capture his lips, pushing my tongue into his mouth. I wanted him to know he was totally and
completely mine, in every way!
*** ***
Across the hallway, David and Purev were
still awake, talking. Purev asked, “Do
you think our Dads will help Mr. Henderson find a job?”
David said, “I think so. I overheard Dad talking to his friend, Garth,
about starting a new company and hiring Mr. Henderson to work for them.”
“That would be so cool!” Purev
exclaimed. “Our Dad’s are the greatest!”
David looked across the room to the
other bed, where Purev lay under his blankets.
“Do you think Mark will ever be comfortable being gay?”
Purev responded, “I don’t know. Why do you ask?”
“Dad told me I needed to be careful
about becoming so attached to Mark. He
said that it’s not very often that someone’s first love actually lasts,” David
said. “He said, even if Mark’s family
stays in the area, Mark may not be ready to be in an openly gay relationship
with me.”
Purev asked, “Is Mark still asking you not
to out him at school?”
“Yes, he is. He wants to be in Junior Reserve Officers
Training Corps (JROTC) and he thinks being gay will keep him from joining
JROTC,” David said. “He’s always dreamed
of following in his father’s footsteps by becoming an officer in the Marine
Corps.”
Purev said, “Well, Mark’s right. They won’t let him in the military if they
know he’s gay. Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell
hasn’t been repealed yet.”
“Dad said that, too. Remember, he was in the Marine Corps when he
met Daddy. They had to wait to get
married until after Dad left the military,” David said.
Purev knew the story of how David’s Dads
met. He said, “I think it’s really
awesome how they met and became soul mates.
Do you think me and Gabriel are soul mates?”
David said, “I don’t know, Purev. Gabriel’s like Mark. He doesn’t want anyone to know he’s gay.”
“Yeah, I know Gabriel still isn’t sure
if he is really gay, or not. He’s a very
macho type of guy, and loves being with his buddies in the Army JROTC program
at school. But, I don’t like being
around Gabriel’s school friends, because they’re always making jokes about
“faggots” and “gays” that make me feel really uncomfortable.”
David said, “He’s just like Mark. Gabriel only takes you to places where he
won’t be seen by his buddies. Mark does
that with me, too.”
Purev said, his voice cracking, “It
makes me feel bad that Gabriel feels he has to hide his relationship with me
from everyone. Maybe, we really aren’t
meant to be soul mates, after all.”
David got up and walked over to Purev’s
bed. He sat down and pulled Purev into
his arms. “It’s okay, Purev. Dad said we should enjoy ourselves, but not
to get too serious with anyone, until we’re older.”
Purev nodded his head, still watering
David’s bare chest with his tears. “But,
I want someone to love me, for who I am, David.”
“I do too, Purev. Someday, we’ll find Mr. Right,” David said,
repeating his Dad’s words to his friend.
Purev dried his tears, and said, “Thank
you for being my friend, David.”
David said, “You’re welcome. Let’s get some sleep. We have to be up early for school.”
“Good night, David,” Purev said.
“Good night, Purev,” he replied,
returning to his own bed.
*** ***
The next morning, Kyle woke up to find
his Dads sitting on his bed. Kyle looked
up, surprised to see them in his room.
Normally, he was the one who went to their room to wake them up. He sat up, and asked, “What’s up?”
I leaned over and kissed his cheek. “We need you to pull on some clothes and join
us in our room.”
Kyle asked, “Why? What’s wrong?
Is it Grandpa?” He knew that
Grandpa Nielsen was in the hospital again.
He had been making good progress in the nursing home. His paralysis was completely gone and he had
begun making some sounds that were kind of like talking, but not quite. Then, Grandpa had another stroke.
Rick said, “Just come as quickly as you
can.”
We left Kyle’s room and walked down the
hall to wake the rest of the children. A
few moments later, they gathered in our room, rubbing the sleep from their
eyes. I picked up my cell phone and
dialed my mother’s number.
“Mom,” I said.
She asked, “Glenn, are the children
ready?”
“Yes, they are all here,” I
replied. “I’ve got the phone on speaker
now, Mom.”
“Children, I’m sorry that we had to get
you out of bed so early, but Grandpa isn’t doing well. He wanted to hear your voices one last time,”
she said. “I’ve got the phone on
speaker here, as well. I’ll voice his
answers to your questions.”
Kyle said, “Hi Grandpa. You’re not giving up, are you?”
“No, but my body has given up on me,
Kyle,” Mom read from Dad’s board.
“I love you, Grandpa. I’m going to miss talking to you about my day
at school,” Kyle said, tears rolling down his cheeks.
“I’ll miss that, as well. I love you, too,” Mom voiced for my Dad.
David said, “Grandpa, I love you. I’ll never forget the many times you helped
me tear things apart, only to rebuild them.
Thank you for understanding me.”
“I will always be there for you, in your
heart,” Mom read from Dad’s board.
“Grandpa, I love you. I made several new drawings for you,” Ashley
said.
“Thank you, Ashley. Please give them to your grandmother to keep
for me. I love you. Thank you for being my little princess,” Mom
said.
JJ and Josh came closer to the
phone. “Grandpa, you can’t die. You promised to take us fishing,” JJ said.
“I’m sorry, JJ. I did promise that. I’ll have to get your Dads to take you in my
place,” Mom responded for Dad, her voice thick with tears.
Josh said, “We love you, Grandpa. We’ll catch the biggest fish for you. We’ll miss you.”
“I love you JJ and Josh,” Mom read from
Dad’s board.
Purev said, “Grandpa, thank you for all
of your advice. I love you.”
Mom read, “I love you, Purev. Always keep your head up.”
Rick said, “Dad, we love you.”
I said, “Dad, we’ll miss you. Thank you for being there for us.”
Mom read, “I love you, Glenn and
Rick. You’re wonderful husbands and
fathers. I’m proud of you both. Thank you for sharing your lives with me,
especially after how poorly I treated you.”
Mom continued, “Dad wants to speak to
the rest of the family, so we’ll say good bye for now. We love all of you very much. I’ll call you later, boys.”
She ended the call. Kyle walked over and threw himself into my
arms. His body shook with the
overwhelming grief he felt. I held him
tight, and said, “It’s okay to cry.”
Ashley walked over to her Dad and said,
“I need a hug, Dad.”
Rick pulled her onto his lap and she
laid her head on his shoulder. “I’m
going to miss Grandpa.”
“Me, too,” JJ said.
“We all will,” I said, beckoning the
boys to join us in a group hug. There
were tears in everybody’s eyes.
After a while, Kyle pulled back and
said, “I’m good now, Daddy. I’m going
to get ready for school.”
He stood up and walked over to Rick to
give him a hug. Rick could see Kyle was
still very upset. Rick asked, “Do you
need to stay home, today?”
Kyle shook his head. “No, I’ll be alright.”
I asked, “Do any of you need to stay
home from school, today?”
David and Purev shook their heads. “We’re okay, Daddy.”
Ashley said, “I’d rather be at school,
instead of waiting here at home.”
I nodded my head. “You’re right about that Ashley. It’s better to be busy than to sit here,
worrying and waiting.”
She kissed her father’s cheek, and stood
up. “I’m going to get ready for
school.”
She left the room, followed by David and
Purev. I looked at the twins and said,
“Okay boys. Let’s get out of your
pajamas, then we’ll have breakfast.”
Josh asked, “May we have pancakes?”
“Yes, if you help me make them,” I said.
Josh shouted, as he ran to his room,
“Hurray! We’re having pancakes for
breakfast!”
JJ followed him, at a slower pace. Rick and I took a quick shower and got
dressed for the day. We walked into the
kitchen to find David and Josh making pancakes.
I walked over and kissed David on the cheek. “Thank you for cooking breakfast.”
David grinned. “No problem, Daddy.”
We were soon joined by the boys and
Ashley. When everyone was seated around
the table, we held hands and said grace.
Rick thanked God for our food and asked God to bless Dad, that his
passing would be made easy and that he would be received into Heaven. We ate our breakfast in silence.
We had just finished cleaning up the
dishes, when my cell phone rang. It was
my mother. “Hello, Mom.”
“Glenn, your father passed away a few
minutes ago. He was at peace. He spoke with all of his children and
grandchildren this morning before he left us,” she said.
“Did he call and talk to Johnny?” I
asked. Johnny is my 9-year old
half-brother. He has been spending every
summer with my parents since he was two years old. His mother, Renata, had an affair with my Dad
while my parents were separated; and, of course, Renata got pregnant!
“Yes, he did. Johnny is a dear boy, and I’ve come to love
him as one of my own, despite the circumstances of his birth,” she said. “Now, with your Dad’s passing, he will need a
father figure in his life. Maybe you and
your brothers can work out something between the four of you to fill that void
in little Johnny’s life.”
It was typical of my mother to always
think of others, even during a time of loss like this. I smiled through my tears. “Yes, Mom, I think we can arrange to be there
for Johnny.”
“Thanks, Glenn. I knew I could count on you,” she said. “I will call you with the funeral
arrangements later today.”
Covering the phone with my hand, I asked
Rick, “When will we leave for St. Catharines?”
“Tomorrow,” he said.
I spoke into the phone, “Mom, we’ll be
there tomorrow.”
“Thank you for coming so quickly,” she
said, her voice choked with tears. “I
need my family around me right now.”
“I know, Mom,” I said. “We’ll see you tomorrow.”
“I love you,” she said.
“I love you, too, Mom,” I
responded. She ended the call, and I
turned to the children. “All of you need
to get your homework assignments for the rest of the week. I’ll write notes for each of you explaining
the situation. Please bring me your
agendas.”
Fairfax County Public Schools provides
each child in the school system with a planner to keep track of assignments,
projects, etc. It’s also the vehicle for
sending information to the school. Of
course, I call the schools, as well!
The teenagers quickly disappeared
upstairs to retrieve their back packs, returning moments later. I wrote notes for each one of them, finishing
just as Jeff walked in the door to take them to school.
Seeing our sad faces, he asked, “What’s
wrong?”
I said, “My father passed away this
morning.”
“I’m sorry, Glenn,” Jeff said, giving me
a hug. “When are we leaving?”
Rick said, “Early tomorrow morning.”
Jeff looked across at Rick, “I’ll make
sure everything is taken care of here.”
Rick nodded his head. “Thanks, Jeff. I appreciate all you do for us.”
“Not a problem, boss,” Jeff said,
grinning. “Cole and I will drive up with
you.”
Rick met Jeff’s gaze, and asked, “Is
there something you want to tell us?”
Before Jeff could answer him, Cole walked
up behind him, placing his arms around his waist. He said, “Good morning.”
I said, “Good morning, Cole.”
Rick responded, “Good morning.”
Jeff leaned back into Cole’s chest, and
said, “I asked Cole to marry me, last night.”
“Of course, I said, ‘yes,’ and we want
to be married as soon as possible,” Cole said.
Rick and I chorused,
“Congratulations!”
“We were going to ask for a week off to
get married, but since we’re travelling to St. Catharines, anyway, we won’t
need the time off,” Jeff said. “We can
get married while we’re there.”
I said, “We’re very happy for you
both. It will help make it easier for us
to handle Dad’s funeral by celebrating such a happy occasion.”
Cole looked at me, and said, “I’m sorry,
Glenn. I didn’t know your father had passed.”
I said, “That’s alright, Cole. We just found out ourselves just before you
guys arrived to drive the kids to school.
Mom will call us back with the funeral arrangements. Meanwhile, we’ve written notes to the school
informing them the children will be out of school the rest of the week.”
Jeff said, “We’re leaving first thing in
the morning for St. Catharines.”
Cole nodded his head, and said,
“Good. Glenn, do you know what we’ll
need to get our marriage license?”
I grinned at him. “I sure do.
I’ll print out the list of requirements for you.”
“No, need to do that,” Jeff said. “I’ve already done the research.”
Cole said, “I should have known you had
it all under control.”
Jeff turned around in Cole’s arms, and
kissed him. “It’s my job to take care of
those I love.”
Caroline entered the kitchen, and said,
impatiently, “Daddy, we’re going to be late.”
Jeff laughed. “I think this is the first time you’ve wanted
to get to school on time.”
Caroline glared at her father. “No, it’s not. I just want to get there early, so I can meet
Thomas before class.”
Jeff said, “Okay, let’s go.”
Cole released him, and they left the
kitchen, followed by Caroline. We walked
with them to the door. Jeff said, “We’ll
see you guys in a couple of hours. We’ll
finish our preparations for the trip, when we get back.”
Our teens each gave us a hug and kiss,
as they filed past us to join Jeff and Cole.
We returned to the kitchen to find the twins waiting for us.
JJ said, “May we play dress up?”
Josh added, “We haven’t played dress up
for a long time, Daddy.”
I looked at Rick and said, “Okay, we can
play dress up this morning. We can do
our school work with Cammy and Skye this afternoon.”
Rick said, “You’d better call Zach and
Todd to let them know about Dad.”
“I’ll do that after we play dress
up. You know how they like to sleep in
when we’re not doing morning lessons,” I said, smiling at my husband.
Rick said, “I know. I made the mistake of calling Zach one
morning, while you were in Austin two weeks ago.”
My cell phone rang, and I grabbed it from
my pocket. I answered it, “Clay, what’s
up?”
“Glenn, I’m going stir crazy just
sitting around the house. Do you think I
could meet with you and Rick?”
I looked over at Rick and asked, “Are
you up for a meeting with Clay?”
Rick thought it over for a few
minutes. “I guess. Where does he want to meet?”
I asked, “Where do you propose to meet
us?”
“Do you mind coming here?” he asked.
“I don’t think that would be a good
idea,” I said. “How about we meet you
for breakfast at IHOP (International House of Pancakes)?”
“Okay, there’s an IHOP near me in
Kingstowne. Is that okay?” he asked.
“Sure,” I replied. “The twins will love getting a second
breakfast. I think they must have been
born hobbits, because they never stop eating.”
Clay laughed. “I would love to meet your boys. Mark has told me so much about them.”
“Are you speaking to Mark?” I asked, in
surprise.
“Yes, I’ve let him know that I’m okay
with his sexual orientation. I decided I
wanted to have a relationship with my son, rather than stand on my religious
principles,” Clay said.
“Well, that is good news. We’ll see you at IHOP about 10:00 AM,” I
said.
“Great!” Clay exclaimed, and ended the
call.
I dialed Jeff. Cole answered Jeff’s phone. “Hey, Glenn!”
I replied, “Hey, yourself, Cole!”
He asked, “What’s up?”
I said, “We’ve had a change of plans for
the morning. We need you and Jeff to
meet us at the IHOP in Kingstowne at 10:00 AM.
We’re meeting Clay for breakfast.”
Cole gave a low whistle. “Wow!
Do you want me to tell David?”
“Sure.
I’m sure he would find out from Mark, anyway,” I said. “Apparently, Clay has decided his religious
beliefs shouldn’t interfere with his relationship with his son.”
Cole responded, “It’s about time he got
his act together. Mark is such a great
kid. He deserves to have a father who
accepts him for who he is.”
“Well, we’ll see you guys at IHOP,” I
said. I ended the call and turned to
Rick. “I guess we’ll see what the man
has to say.”
Rick put his arm around my waist,
pulling me close. He kissed me, and
said, “Let’s go play dress up.”
We left the kitchen to find that the
twins had already pulled out the dress up clothes, and were sorting through
them. Josh found some swimming flippers,
a Cubs baseball cap, and a jacket. He
put them on and added a pair of sunglasses to his costume.
He
walked over to me and said, “I’m Josh the Super Duck!”
I
laughed, and said, “I’ve got to have a photo of this one.” I ran upstairs to grab my camera. I returned and snapped photo of our very own
Super Duck!
Meanwhile, JJ pulled out his leopard Halloween costume. He slipped off his shoes and pulled it on
over the top of his clothes. He put his
shoes back on and meticulously retied his shoes. He growled ferociously and started chasing
our Super Duck around the room.
I got him as he ran past me.
I said, “Before you keep chasing your brother, I want to take your
picture.” I stood him in front of the
couch and said, “Don’t move.” I stepped
back and focused the camera on him. I
snapped the shot, and he was off, chasing Josh around the room.
Rick
pulled me down on the couch and wrapped his arms around me. “Let them play for a while. We don’t need to be anywhere for a couple of
hours yet.”
I
leaned back against his chest. I lightly
caressed his arms where they crossed my stomach, holding me close to him. He nibbled on my ear, and whispered, “I love
you.”
I
turned my head to meet his lips in a tender kiss. “Thank you for holding me close, Babe. I need your touch. I didn’t think Dad’s passing would upset me
as much as it has. I knew things weren’t
going well and I thought I was prepared to hear of his death; but it’s really
shaken me, Rick.”
“I
know how you feel, Babe. My Dad’s
passing really bothered me,” Rick said, lifting my shirt and placing his hands
flat against my chest. The feel of his
body against mine gave me comfort.
The
tears started rolling down my face, as the reality of Dad’s death hit me. “I’m going to miss him, Rick,” I said, my
voice thick with tears.
Rick
removed his hands from my shirt, and turned me around so I sat straddling
him. He pulled me to him and I buried my
face in his chest, soaking his shirt with my tears.
I
mumbled into his shirt, “I wish we could have been closer to him.”
“Given
where we live, we shared as much of our lives with him as we could, and our
children benefited from knowing their grandfather. We visited with your parents on most holidays
and every summer,” Rick said.
I
leaned back in his arms, and looked him in the eyes. “I know we’ve done the best we could. I’m just feeling the loss of a parent. I remember how you felt, when you found out
your Dad was gone. I’m not feeling quite
the loss you did, because I’ve been able to patch things up with Dad over the
years. So, I guess I shouldn’t feel so
bad.”
Rick
reached up and wiped away my tears with his thumbs, then he pulled my head down
to meet his lips. He kissed me and
rubbed noses with me. “I’m here for you,
Babe.”
I
wrapped my arms around his neck and buried my face in his shoulder. A few minutes later, I felt two pairs of
small hands patting my back. I lifted my
head and met JJ’s deep brown eyes.
He
gave me a worried look. “Daddy, are you
okay?”
“Yes,
I’m okay, son,” I replied.
Josh
patted my arm, to get my attention.
“But, you’re crying, Daddy. Why
are you so sad?”
I
turned to look into his sparkling, sapphire blue eyes. “I’m crying, because I miss Grandpa.”
“Grandpa
said he was just going away for a little while.
He said we would see him again,” Josh said, seriously. “He said he believed we would be together
again in Paradise.”
“When
did he say that?” I asked.
“When
we visited him last time,” JJ said. It amazed
me that JJ had remembered what Dad had told him, as it had been nearly a month
since we had driven to St. Catharines to visit Dad in the nursing home.
Josh
spoke up, “Yes, Daddy, Grandpa told us that Paradise is a very nice place and
he would wait for us there.”
JJ
interrupted his brother, “But, Kyle said we are going to live together as
families forever with God. Kyle thinks
his Mom and Dad are already there with his Grandma.”
I
looked at Rick in surprise. My two
little guys were turning out to be quite the authorities on life after
death! I overheard Kyle talking about it
with David and Ashley a few days ago, but I was unaware the twins had been part
of that conversation, as well.
I
smiled at JJ, and said, “Well, I think we’ll have to talk more about where we
go after death at another time.”
JJ
said, “Okay.” His brow furrowed and he
said, earnestly, “Will we see Mommy soon?”
“Yes,
we’ll see her this week. She and your
cousins will be in St. Catharines for Grandpa’s funeral,” I replied.
We
have been very open with our boys about who their mother is. We feel it’s important for them to have a
connection with my sister as their mother.
Nancy’s love for us has increased over the years since the twins’ birth,
because we’ve made her a part of their lives.
Satisfied
with my answer, he jumped down and said, “I’m hungry, Daddy. May we have a snack?”
I
shook my head. “No, son. We’re going to have a second breakfast at
IHOP. You can have pancakes and sausage
when we get to the restaurant.”
“Okay,”
JJ said. He looked at his twin, and
said, “Let’s watch Thomas the Tank Engine.”
Rick
said, “Put your dress up clothes back in their tub, before turning on the
television.” They quickly did as they
were told, and were soon sitting in front of the television, watching their
favorite show.
***
***
An
hour or so later, we entered the restaurant to find Clay waiting for us in the
lobby. He stood up and greeted us with a
handshake. “Thank you for agreeing to
meet with me.”
I
said, “Let me introduce you to our twins.
This is JJ and this is Josh.”
Clay
looked at them both and smiled, noticing how closely the resembled their
Dads. “Hello, boys! I’m glad to meet you.”
JJ
looked up at Clay, and asked, “Are you Mark’s Dad?”
“Yes,
I’m Mark’s Dad,” Clay responded.
Josh
said, “Good, because we like Mark.”
“And
Michaela,” JJ added. “But she doesn’t
like to play video games with us like Mark does.”
Clay
laughed. “I’m glad to hear that you like
Mark. I think he’s pretty special, too.”
Rick
said, “This is our chief of security, Jeff Dunn and his fiancé, Cole Moran.”
Clay
looked at them and hesitated a moment before extending his hand to them. “Nice to meet you,” he said.
The
hostess signaled that our table was ready.
We followed her to our table. She
was a petite Asian lady, with a bright smile and heavily accented English. Her name tag read, “Myong.” She asked, “Do you want booster seats for the
boys?”I nodded my head. “Yes,
please. That will make it easier for
them to reach the table.”
She
left us and returned a few minutes later with two booster seats. We soon had the twins settled, and turned to
looking at our menus. She asked, “What
can I get you to drink?” I ordered milk
for the boys, with orange juice and water for me and Rick. The other guys placed their orders, and she
left us to look over the menu.
JJ
asked, “How many pancakes may I have?”
Rick
countered, “How many can you eat?”
JJ
thought for a minute, then answered his father, “I think I can eat four little
pancakes like these.” He pointed to the
children’s menu. “Or I can eat two big
ones like this one.” He opened the menu
to the page with the normal menu items were listed.
Rick
said, “Okay, let’s order two small pancakes for you and I’ll give you my
pancakes.”
Josh
said, “May I have your pancakes, too, Daddy?”
I
grinned at the eagerness in his voice. I
could always count on Josh being hungry!
“Sure, son, you can have my pancakes.”
He clapped his hands in excitement.
He turned to Clay, and said, “David and Mark like to make pancakes for
us.”
“Yes,
they make delicious chocolate chip pancakes,” JJ added, not wanting to be left
out of the conversation.
Clay
smiled at their excited little faces.
“Has anyone ever told you that you look like your Dads?”
JJ
replied, “Yes, all the time.”
I
met Clay’s glance, and smiled. “Yes, we
often hear that from people.”
Our
waitress returned with our beverages.
Rick ordered his usual omelet with a side of pancakes for JJ. I ordered the sampler. I love my eggs over easy, so I can dip my
toast in the yolk and eat it with my sausages and hash brown potatoes.
Clay
ordered pancakes; while Jeff and Cole followed Rick’s example, ordering
omelets. Myong left us, and I distracted
the twins with the games and crayons provided for them by the restaurant, while
Rick got down to business.
“Well,
Clay, what is it that you wanted to say to us?” Rick asked, holding Clay’s
gaze.
Clay
said, “I want to apologize to you for the way I treated you at the
Pentagon. I was wrong, and I’ve learned
the hard way just how wrong. I was too
wrapped up in trying to impress the guys to pay attention to what was really
important.”
Rick
asked, “What was it that was so important?”
Clay
looked out the window, then back to Rick.
“I wasn’t smart enough to realize that my religious beliefs had no place
in our work environment. I should have
put them on the shelf, and listened to my superior officers’ warnings. I was too blinded by my macho attitude to
admit that a gay guy could be the most important person on my team.”
“Okay…,”
Rick said, drawing out the word. “So,
where does that leave us?”
Clay
said, “I’m sorry I messed with you and your family. I’ve had time to rethink my opinion of gays,
and I admit I’m still struggling with the concept of two guys being married to
each other, no offense intended.” He
glanced at the four of us.
Jeff
said, “None taken, as long as you don’t mind us saying we don’t understand how
a guy could seriously think being with a woman is enjoyable.” Clay looked thunderstruck. He hadn’t expected Jeff’s response.
Jeff
continued, “I’m divorced, with three children.
I was miserable the entire time I was married to my wife. She made my life a living hell. Since I’ve been with Cole, he has restored my
faith in the human race. I’ve never been
happier.”
Clay
nodded his head. “I know the feeling, at
least the part about your ex-wife making your life hell. Janelle has made it clear she wants nothing
to do with me.”
I
said, “However, we know that she loves you.”
Clay
looked at me in shock. “How do you know
that?”
“Because
she has asked us to assist you. She
doesn’t want you to suffer any more than you already have,” I said.
“I
didn’t know she had talked to you about me, other than to ask you to help me
find a job,” Clay said.
Rick
said, “You forget that we have come to know your family very well over the last
few months.”
Clay
nodded his head. “You’re right. Things haven’t been able to return to normal
because of my issues with gays. Janelle
told me she wanted nothing to do with me, as long as I couldn’t accept my
son.” Here he paused and looked out the
window. Turning back to us, he said, “I
want to have a good relationship with my son; but, I’m unsure how to move
forward. I’ve talked to him a couple of
times over the last few days, but I’ve avoided the subject of his sexuality.”
“Are
you asking for our advice?” Jeff asked.
Clay
nodded his head. He met Jeff’s
eyes. “I’ve made a royal mess of
everything, and I don’t know where to start.”
“Start
by being honest with him,” Jeff said.
“I’m
afraid I’ll drive him away from me, if I tell him how I feel about gays,” Clay
said.
“Why
don’t you start by telling us how you feel about gays? I’m interested to see where you are,” Jeff
said, his expression hard as steel.
Clay
flinched, but held Jeff’s gaze. “I’m
okay with gays, as long as they don’t force their ways on me.”
“So,
as long as none of us tries to fuck you, you’re okay,” Jeff said, bluntly.
Clay
said, “That’s right; however, I’m struggling to accept the fact that my son is
gay. At first, I blamed the Campbells
and you guys for influencing Mark. But,
the more I thought about it, the more I realized that Mark has been gay all of
his life. It doesn’t make it any easier
for me to accept, though.”
Cole
said, “At least you’ve recognized that being gay is who he is. My parents tried to convince me being gay was
a choice. It’s not a choice. Why would anyone choose to be gay? Society, in general, hates us and treats us
very poorly. Why would anyone want to
voluntarily choose that kind of life?”
Clay
said, “I hadn’t thought of it that way.”
Our
food arrived, and we dived in. By the
time I finished my eggs, the twins were finished with their pancakes and were
looking for more. I passed my pancakes
to JJ, helping him pour the syrup. Rick
gave his to Josh, assisting him by cutting the pancakes into bite-sized pieces.
Jeff
asked, “So, what kind of work can you do?”
Clay
said, “I’m pretty good at setting up secure networks. I’ve also worked on several highly visible
projects for the Marine Corps.”
Rick
said, “Please explain.” Clay went over
his credentials and work experience.
When he finished, Rick said, “Good.
I’m glad to see you’re honest about your work experience. We’ve already checked out your resume with
the Marine Corps and vetted you with some of our clients.”
Clay
looked at Rick in astonishment. “I
didn’t think you would even give me the time of day, after the way I treated you.”
Rick
laughed. “You don’t know how persistent
your wife is. Janelle can be pretty
persuasive.”
Clay
grinned. “I do know. I also know how stubborn she can be.”
“Well,
Garth had you checked out pretty thoroughly,” Rick said. He met Clay’s eyes, and asked, “Do you mind
if I ask you a very personal question?”
Clay
answered, “Sure, go ahead.”
“How
are you doing with your therapy?” Rick asked.
Clay
looked down at his plate, before responding to Rick’s question. “I’m making good progress, but I’m not completely
recovered from my issues resulting from my tour of duty in Afghanistan.”
Rick
said, “What does the Marine Corps think?”
“They
said that I was well on my way to getting better. I think they just wanted to discharge me as
soon as possible,” Clay said, with bitterness showing in his voice. “They basically washed their hands of me.”
“Do
you think you could handle a high pressure job?” Rick asked, seriously.
Clay
didn’t respond for a long time. He
wasn’t sure he could. “I’m not sure I
could, Rick. Honestly, I think I’m
capable; but, after what happened, I’m not sure. I have to be upfront with you, Rick. I’m a broken man and I’m not sure what I’m
good for, anymore.”
As
he looked away from us, I could see his eyes were bright with unshed
tears. This was a man who seemed to be
on the edge of a mental and emotional breakdown. It was very evident that his emotions were
very near the surface.
I
looked over at Rick. He took my hand in
his, giving it a gentle squeeze. He
said, “I think we can provide you with employment. Garth has a need for someone to write project
proposals for his new company. I think
you would do very well, given your experience.”
Clay
smiled, gratefully. “I’m glad you think
so.”
Our
waitress brought our bill. We paid for
our breakfast. As we left the
restaurant, Rick said, “Garth will be in touch with you before the end of the
week. Unfortunately, we have to leave
for Canada in the morning, so I won’t be available to meet with you. But, you already know Garth and Phil, so that
shouldn’t be a problem.”
Clay
nodded his head. “Thanks for meeting
with me.”
We
shook hands, and went our separate ways.
We returned to the house, and were met by Zach and Todd. Todd pulled me into his arms, and said, “I’m
so sorry.” He held me tight for a long
moment, before releasing me.
Zach
asked, “How are you holding up, Glenn?”
I
replied, “I’m okay at the moment. I’m
sure I’ll be a basket case later, but I’m doing fine now.”
Rick
asked, “Are you guys traveling to St. Catharines with us?”
Todd
nodded his head. “Yes, I’ll be driving
up, but Zach will have to fly up, after his game. Your mother called with the funeral
arrangements, Glenn. I wrote them down
on the notepad by the phone.”
“Thanks,
Todd. I love you,” I said.
Todd
grinned. “I know you do.”
I
laughed, and said, “Let’s plan what we’ll need for the trip.”
We
gathered around the kitchen table and made our plans. Jeff had already made up a list of things
that needed to be done. We added things
to his list, then divided the tasks between us and set about getting things
done. It was good to be busy, because it
kept my mind off of the upcoming funeral!
***
***
David
met Mark at the door to their math class.
Mark was grinning from ear to ear.
“Your Dads met with my Dad today.
Dad thinks they’re going to hire him.”
David
high fived his boyfriend. “Cool! Now, maybe your Mom will decide to stay here,
instead of moving to Texas.”
Mark’s
smile quickly disappeared from his face.
“I don’t understand why Mom wants to go running home to her parents.” The thought of running home to Mommy with his
problems was the last thing his 14-year old mind could fathom. In his mind, only sissies and pansies ran
home to tell their Mommies all their problems.
The
Campbells knew he was gay and he had been open with them about it from their
first meeting; but Mark had told his mother he was gay only because he couldn’t
hide the fact from her, with David spending so much time with him. She had seen them holding hands and kissing,
so he had answered her question truthfully, when she confronted him about being
gay.
It
irritated him that she was using him as an excuse to divorce his father. Not that his father wasn’t deserving of being
left out of their lives, after what he’d done; but Mark felt his mother should
be honest about the reasons she was divorcing his father. He had barely spoken to her since she
announced her plans to divorce his father and the reasons for doing so. He had expressed his feelings about her
excuse for leaving his Dad, only to be told that she was doing it to protect
him. It made him very angry that she was
putting the burden on his shoulders, blaming him for his parents’ divorce. She claimed she accepted him as gay and said
the right words, but she sure knew how to play a guilt trip on him, telling him
that her reason for divorcing her husband was because he was gay and needed to
be protected from him.
As
the two boys walked into the classroom to take their seats, he turned to David
and said, “I want to come live with you, David.
I don’t want to live with my mother.”
David
looked at Mark in surprise. “Why?”
“Because
she is just as prejudiced against gays as my Dad. She tries to pretend she’s okay with me
having a boyfriend, but is really trying to take me away from you, by moving to
Texas. She even blames me for her
divorce,” Mark said.
“Well,
you can talk to my Dads about it,” David said.
“May
I come over tonight?” Mark asked.
David
said, “I’ll text my Dads.”
Meanwhile,
the class started with the teacher outlining the homework assignment for the
day. David quickly tapped out a text
message to his Dad. Rick heard his phone
chirp and pulled it out of his pocket.
He read the message, and looked over at me.
“Are
you okay with Mark and Gabriel coming over to help the boys pack?” he asked.
“Sure,
as long as they don’t stay too late,” I replied, with a smile, knowing the boys
wanted some alone time with their boyfriends.
Rick
responded, then he called Jeff to let him know there would be two more teens
joining him for the ride home and put his phone back in his pocket. David felt his phone vibrate in his pocket,
and surreptitiously pulled his phone out to read his Dad’s reply. He looked over at Mark, giving him the thumbs
up sign. After class, Mark and David
found Gabriel waiting for them in the hallway.
David
asked, “Can you come over tonight?”
Gabriel
said, “Sure, let me call my Mom.” He
pulled out his phone and made the call.
He grinned, as he put the phone back in his pocket. “Mom’s cool. I can go as long as I’m back home before
ten.”
“Great!”
David exclaimed.
The
three boys made their way outside to find Ashley, who was already waiting on
the curb for their ride. They were
surprised when Cole pulled up in his Ford Explorer.
He
rolled down the window. “Are you guys
waiting for a ride home?”
“Yes,
but we thought Uncle Jeff was coming to get us,” Ashley said.
“Well,
since Gabriel and Mark are coming home with us, we needed two vehicles. Climb in, and we’ll take you home,” Cole
said.
The
teens climbed in, and Cole pulled away from the curb. As soon as they were out of the parking lot,
Mark leaned over to kiss David. “I’ve
wanted to kiss you all day,” he said. He
leaned closer to David’s ear, and whispered, “I want to fuck you, tonight.”
David
grinned, and placed his hand on the inside of Mark’s thigh. Gabriel noticed, and asked, “Can’t you guys
wait until you get home?”
Mark
grinned back at his friend. “No, we
can’t.”
A
while later, Cole pulled into the driveway of our home. The teens made their way inside, and joined
Rick and I in the kitchen. Moments
later, we were joined by the Edison High School contingent, followed by Jeff
and Cole. I passed out chocolate chip
cookies and glasses of milk to everyone.
Jeff
smiled, as he munched on his cookies.
“Glenn, you will have to teach Cole how to make chocolate chip cookies.”
I
returned his smile. “I’m sure Cole
already knows how to make you happy. He
doesn’t need to make cookies.”
Cole
laughed. “That’s true, Jeff.”
Jeff
blushed, but grinned at his finance.
Caroline said, “Dad and Cole have been acting like teenagers.”
Jeff
looked at her in mock horror. “How can
that be?”
Marie
said, “You two are so goofy. I only
thought teenage boys acted that way.”
She looked over at the boys seated across from her.
Mark
said, “I resemble that remark.”
The
rest of our teenage boys laughed, and chorused, “So do we.”
Ashley
said, “It’s true. Boys are so immature.”
Caroline
agreed. “Yes, but they’re so cute.”
Purev
said, “I know I’m cute. Gabriel even
said so.”
Gabriel
kissed his boyfriend, then asked, “Isn’t he adorable?”
Caroline
said, “Yes, he is.”
Kyle
finished his cookies and milk, and stood up from the table. He rinsed off his dishes and placed them in
the dishwasher. “I’ve got to get on my
homework.”
Ashley
said, “Me, too.” She cleaned up after
herself and followed Kyle out of the kitchen.
The rest of the boys weren’t far behind them, retiring to their room.
Jeff
said, “We need to be getting home, as well.
We’ll see you guys in the morning.”
I
stood up, and hugged both Jeff and Cole.
“Thanks for bringing the children home.”
Cole
said, “Not a problem, boss.” He turned
to Jeff, giving him a quick kiss. “I’ll
see you at home.”
Caroline
and Marie followed their father and his fiancé outside. As they climbed into Jeff’s SUV, Caroline
asked, “Do Marie and I get to be in your wedding?”
Jeff
looked at her in surprise. “Why, of
course. What made you think you wouldn’t
be?”
“Well,
we weren’t sure, because you’re both guys, and won’t you have two best men to
stand up with you, instead of bridesmaids?” Caroline asked.
Jeff
said, “Well, I hadn’t thought of it that way; but, I want you both to be
groom’s maids for me. Is that okay?”
Marie
giggled. “I’ve never heard of groom’s
maids before.”
“Well,
there is always a first time for everything,” Jeff said, smiling at his
daughters. “I want both of you to part
of our wedding.”
When
they arrived at their apartment, Cole said, “Dinner is ready. I put our dinner in the slow cooker this
morning.”
The
girls set the table, while served up the food:
roast beef, potatoes, carrots and a green salad. After dinner, Caroline said, “I’m glad you
came to live with us, Cole. You’re a
much better cook than Dad is.”
Jeff
agreed. “Yes, I’m glad I finally met
someone who can cook!” He leaned over
and kissed his lover. “Thank you for
everything you do for us, Babe.”
Cole
smiled, and said, “You all make me so happy, it’s the least I can do for my
wonderful family.”
Marie
walked over and wrapped her arms around Cole’s neck from behind him. “I wish I’d found you first, because you’re
so handsome.” She kissed him in the
cheek. “I’m glad you’re marrying my Dad.”
Cole
said, “I’m glad he agreed to marry me.”
Jeff
said, “We’ll clean up, while you two get your homework done.” Each of the girls gave their dad a hug, and
left the kitchen. Cole stood at the sink
and washed the dishes, while Jeff dried them and put them away.
When
they were finished, Jeff said, “I need some one-on-one time with my guy.” He took Cole’s hand, and led him to their
bedroom. He closed the door, locking it
behind him. He pulled Cole to him, and
kissed him deeply.
He
whispered, huskily, into Cole’s ear, “I want you to fuck me.”
Cole
stripped off his clothes, then did the same for Jeff. He led him to their bed, pushing Jeff down on
the mattress. He lifted Jeff’s legs over
his shoulders, looking deeply into Jeff’s eyes.
“Make me yours, Cole.”
Cole
grinned, and said, “Are you ready?”
Jeff
nodded his head, and Cole proceeded to make wildly passionate love to his
boyfriend!
***
***
Sated,
Mark held David in his arms. He looked
across the room and met Gabriel’s eyes.
Gabriel grinned. “That was really
hot, seeing you two fuck.”
Mark
grinned back at him. “Yes, that was
pretty awesome, watching you fuck Purev.”
David
said, “It felt great to me. I wish you
could come with us to Canada.”
Mark
said, “Maybe I can. I’ll ask my Mom,
after I talk to my Dad.”
Gabriel
asked, “Are you sure you want to talk to your Dad?”
“Yes,
I need to talk about what Mom is doing.
At least, he’s been honest about his feelings toward me,” Mark said.
Purev
said, “Mark, you need to give your Mom credit for not siding with your Dad; and
disowning you, like my mother did, at first.”
Mark
said, “I think what she’s doing is worse than throwing me out of her house. She’s putting on a happy face and telling me
she loves me; but, in reality she doesn’t because she thinks that taking me
away from David will force me to be straight.
I overheard her talking to Mrs. Campbell about it. I thought she really accepted me for who I
am, until I heard her say she couldn’t believe I was really gay. She said it had to be a phase I was going
through, a period of rebelliousness because of my father’s harsh discipline in
our home.”
David
smoothed Mark’s blond hair, trying to sooth his boyfriend. “I’m sure she still loves you, Mark.”
Mark
asked, “How do you know?”
“Because
she’s a nice person,” David said.
Mark
snorted, expressing his disbelief, “I really don’t think so.”
Gabriel
said, “Do you want us to listen, while you call your Dad?”
“No,
I want to talk to him alone,” Mark said.
He got out of bed, and padded into the en suite, turning on the shower. David joined him under the water, kissing
him. They finished washing each other
clean and got out of the shower. They
dried each other off, and got dressed.
Mark
said, “I’m going downstairs to call my Dad.”
David
said, “The twins will be watching their show, so you can use their room,
instead, or I’m sure you could use my Dads’ room.”
David
led him to his Dads’ room, and opened the door.
Mark walked in and sat down in front of the fireplace, while David
closed the door and returned to his room.
Mark
pulled out his cell phone, and dialed his Dad’s number. “Hey, Mark!” his Dad answered,
enthusiastically.
“Hey,
Dad,” Mark said. “I need to talk to you
about Mom.”
Clay
said, “Okay, shoot.”
Mark
explained everything he had overheard his mother tell Mrs. Campbell and how he
felt about it. Mark ended by asking, “How
do you feel about me being? Be honest
with me, Dad. Don’t lie to me like Mom
has.”
Clay
thought for a moment, then said, “To honest, I’m struggling to accept the fact
that my son is gay. I’ve blamed myself,
the Campbells, David and his Dads, and I’ve blamed your mother. I keep going over everything we have done for
you, wondering where we went wrong. I
keep telling myself that you’re just doing this to get back at me for hitting
your mother. Believe me, I’ve tried to
come to terms with it.”
Mark’s
heart sank, as he heard his dad explain his feelings. “Do you hate gays?”
Clay
sensed that this question was a litmus test, and knew he had better get it
right. “No, I don’t hate gays,
anymore. I used to detest them and
viewed them as sinners and an abomination in God’s eyes. I thought it was my duty to harass them and
to demean them in any way possible. I
learned I was very wrong about gays through hard experiences. First, I messed up on the job and ruined my
career by being bigoted. Then, I learned
firsthand, how honorable and compassionate David’s Dads are. They have every right to hate me, but have
shown me every kindness possible, given my current situation. They are good people and I’m sure every other
gay man is a good person, as well, NOT an abomination like my religion taught
me. I can’t continue to hate gays, and
be true to myself.”
Mark
listened intently to his Dad’s ramblings.
“So, can you still love me, even though I’m gay?”
“Yes,
I still love you, and I promise you I won’t try to change you, or force you to
become something you’re not,” Clay said.
“If you want me to talk to your mother about it, I will.”
“She
won’t speak to you,” Mark said.
“No,
not directly, but I’ll have my lawyer speak to hers about taking you away from
her to protect you from her attempts to change your sexual orientation,” Clay
said. “Is that okay with you?”
Mark
said, “Yes, I don’t want to live with her, anymore; but you have to promise you won’t
turn on me, like you did to Mom.”
Mark’s
request pierced Clay’s heart. He couldn’t
deny that he had betrayed his family by breaking his vow to cherish and protect
them. “I promise to do my best to
protect you from anyone who would do you harm, including myself,” he said.
Mark
gave a huge sigh of relief. “Thanks,
Dad. I was worried I would need to stay
with David’s Dads, like Purev, if you rejected me. I love them, but I would rather be with my
own family.”
Clay
smiled, tears clouding his vision. He
said, “I’m glad you want to be with me, son.
It’s been really hard for me, since your mother served me with divorce
papers.”
Mark
said, “It’s been pretty miserable for me and Michaela. The Campbells have tried to help us, but Mom
is nearly impossible to deal with, anymore.”
“I’m
sorry we’re putting you through all of this,” Clay said. “I promise to do my best to make things
better.”
“Okay,
Dad. I love you,” Mark said.
“I
love you, too, son,” Clay said. “Have a
good night.”
“You,
too,” Mark said. He ended the call and
stood up. He went searching for his
boyfriend. He found him in his bedroom,
packing the last of his clothing into a duffle bag.
David
looked up and met Mark’s eyes. “How did
it go?” he asked, already knowing the answer from Mark’s happy face.
Mark
embraced him, and kissed him. “We’re
good. He’s going to talk to Mom, and he’s
going to tell her I’m going to live with him.”
David
said, “Are you going to ask your Mom if you can go to Canada with us.”
“No,
I don’t think I should. I want to be
there to tell Mom I’m serious about living with Dad, when she gets the news
from her lawyer,” Mark said.
David
nodded his head, “Okay, but you have to call me to let me know how things go.”
“Okay,”
Mark agreed.
The
boys walked hand in hand out of the room and down the stairs to join Gabriel
and Purev in the family room.
I sure am enjoying this story. For some reason I can't get into the new stories about the guys in MN, like I have for this one and Man From (heck I can't .remember the name) oh well keep up the great work.
ReplyDeleteRuss I so enjoyed your stories. I think you a excellent writer. This was as sad as the one when Justin Died. I thank you for your huge endeavor on this story. I read and look daily for a new chapter. These stories are almost life like and you feel a loss when someone dies.
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Michael
Dear Russ (and family)
ReplyDeleteI wanted to sent you my Christmas wishes, but due to the loss of my computer (stolen) I have losst all adresses.
So thru this, I wish you all a merry Christmas! I also want to thank you for for your JD gift.
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Marry Christmas to all of you!
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